Last Night
I cried on my way home last night. Dark winding roads closing in on me. I reached out, and you were there, Only a voice, but one that kept me in reality, Kept the night from closing in.
It was cool outside last night. I was shivering, but not because of cold.
I listen to your voice, feel the steering wheel in my hands, the seat on my back and legs, I focus on your voice and these sensations, feeling the tell tale tingle of my lips - I am close to hyperventilating.
You talk my breathing down. The computer geek telling the midwife how to breath. You ask what happened, but I don't know. The unexpected.
I needed him last night. My weeks have been trying. I just needed to be held. I've never told him I needed him. It was such a simple request, but he walked away from me.
I love him. Loving him has always been easy. I trusted him - he told me I could. Trust is hard for me. But he walked away from me last night, and now my heart is broken.
Copyright Misty M. Millard
11/13/09
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About Me
- Misty
- Midwifery Student, Apprentice, newly engaged single mom. I have been thrust into a life I never thought I'd have, and have learned that I am loving every moment of it. I never dreamed I would be a single mom, yet I am. I definitely never dreamed I would be a single mom *and* a midwifery student, yet I am. I thought once I gave up on my marriage I also gave up on midwifery, at least until my children were grown, but I was wrong. I love my life, and am thankful to be where I am. I am a strong advocate for women, no matter their particular situations in life. I love my work, and consider it more of a calling. It is God's work, and I am merely His humble servant. A servant of God, Women, Children, and Families.
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